[ Enough about her, turning back to him, and this one time he'll accept the spotlight that's been turned to face him instead of reflexively trying to find a way to weasel away. ]
What, you don't think every person in my life is lucky to have me around?
[ Okay, maybe some of the reflex is still there. ]
[ Is that truly luck or is it a stroke of bad fortune....
She digs back into her Chinese food and he watches her, more interested in making sure her little upward lift in mood stays. ]
Sadly, I'm no fairy tale prince, able to fall in love at first sight. [ Even if he occasionally gives off enough green flags to be one. Anyway. ] It's Ishmael.
and then finish putting it in her mouth anyway, chewing slowly and thoughtfully. ishmael, huh? ishmael and wriothesley... ]
... So even she's got a gooey lovey-dovey heart under that prickly shell of hers...
[ don't worry. they're on better terms, malkuth's just like this with everyone. maybe there is hopes for the likes of gebura and yesod. ]
Congrats on the catch! I'm surprised she went for it, though -- it's not like... the people who come from the City are all that good with, you know. Understanding they deserve good things too. Generally speaking.
[ not her though she knows she deserves good things that's why she shoots herself in the foot and takes things for granted ]
[ Good thing he doesn't have food in his mouth right now because he might have choked on a slice of beef, just a little. ]
I wouldn't call it lovey-dovey...
[ A little softer on the inside than that prickly exterior might suggest, sure. Not that he's not in danger of inhaling beef, it's time for another forkful to chew and swallow. (And yes, we are rooting for Gebura and Yesod.) ]
I don't think she wanted to, at first. [ Not to spill all of Ishmael's secrets or anything. ] She still could decide at any point that this is too much for her and walk away.
[ And he'd let her. Anyway, ]
You don't seem to have any problems with the art of romance.
[ what a sweet guy. ishmael's lucky to have wriothesley, which does not have a quarter of the same sickly feeling malkuth has about
anyway. she shrugs. ]
I catch on too late.
[ she takes people for granted, too. but she'll learn that later. ]
Every time I've been confessed to, I've gotten an apology for it in the next second, as if they were a-- a burden for feeling that way, like it wouldn't make me happy to know someone wanted to look at me like that. And then I sometimes want someone I can't, and won't ever, have. Maybe from the outside it looks like I know my way around it, but I always feel two steps behind.
[ ... munch... she seems more resigned with herself than actually sad anyway, so. maybe not the happy pep, but it isn't fake. ]
Kinda getting a crash course to make up for the decade plus I couldn't, I guess.
[ All experience is worth having....or so the saying goes. Personally he thinks certain experiences could probably be passed over, but Malkuth seems to be hanging on well enough. ]
Soon you'll be the expert we'll all be coming to for advice.
[ But does she really want that? ]
Have you at least figured out what you like and don't like when it comes to relationships? Other than the apology afterwards. [ which is a weird as hell thing to happen, say it with your whole chest or don't say it at all ]
[ does she really want that........ also thanks she reprimanded both of them for it and made them have a do-over when they were sober/not in the middle of an amnesiac spell. malkuth's life is so fucking exciting.
but!!! she does tilt her head, thinking about it, before nodding. ]
Let's see... I like... more forward people. I don't think I'd mind someone aggressive with their affections, but I definitely don't like being crowded -- so someone who's considerate of my space and speed, but makes it known that they do like my company, and that they want me around. For basics. Trust and respect are a given, and I'd love someone who can... make me feel less someone with a gallon or three of blood on her hands and more like someone who's living a life she deserves to.
[ ... which she knows sounds. interesting, and clarifies after another bite of rice. ]
Like how I described Ryoji. I felt different than who I was, but not in a bad way -- I felt like a normal girl who had a crush. Um... I don't mind leading, but I'd like someone who takes the initiative a lot more. That's what I've learned from my mishaps!
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What, you don't think every person in my life is lucky to have me around?
[ Okay, maybe some of the reflex is still there. ]
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[ and she can just as easily nudge it away, appetite coming back a little as she picks at her food. thank goodness chinese is good cold. ]
So? Someone you've known for a long time? I can't imagine you're the sort that falls head over heels.
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She digs back into her Chinese food and he watches her, more interested in making sure her little upward lift in mood stays. ]
Sadly, I'm no fairy tale prince, able to fall in love at first sight. [ Even if he occasionally gives off enough green flags to be one. Anyway. ] It's Ishmael.
[ May as well just come right out and say it. ]
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and then finish putting it in her mouth anyway, chewing slowly and thoughtfully. ishmael, huh? ishmael and wriothesley... ]
... So even she's got a gooey lovey-dovey heart under that prickly shell of hers...
[ don't worry. they're on better terms, malkuth's just like this with everyone. maybe there is hopes for the likes of gebura and yesod. ]
Congrats on the catch! I'm surprised she went for it, though -- it's not like... the people who come from the City are all that good with, you know. Understanding they deserve good things too. Generally speaking.
[ not her though she knows she deserves good things that's why she shoots herself in the foot and takes things for granted ]
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I wouldn't call it lovey-dovey...
[ A little softer on the inside than that prickly exterior might suggest, sure. Not that he's not in danger of inhaling beef, it's time for another forkful to chew and swallow. (And yes, we are rooting for Gebura and Yesod.) ]
I don't think she wanted to, at first. [ Not to spill all of Ishmael's secrets or anything. ] She still could decide at any point that this is too much for her and walk away.
[ And he'd let her. Anyway, ]
You don't seem to have any problems with the art of romance.
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anyway. she shrugs. ]
I catch on too late.
[ she takes people for granted, too. but she'll learn that later. ]
Every time I've been confessed to, I've gotten an apology for it in the next second, as if they were a-- a burden for feeling that way, like it wouldn't make me happy to know someone wanted to look at me like that. And then I sometimes want someone I can't, and won't ever, have. Maybe from the outside it looks like I know my way around it, but I always feel two steps behind.
[ ... munch... she seems more resigned with herself than actually sad anyway, so. maybe not the happy pep, but it isn't fake. ]
Kinda getting a crash course to make up for the decade plus I couldn't, I guess.
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Soon you'll be the expert we'll all be coming to for advice.
[ But does she really want that? ]
Have you at least figured out what you like and don't like when it comes to relationships? Other than the apology afterwards. [ which is a weird as hell thing to happen, say it with your whole chest or don't say it at all ]
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but!!! she does tilt her head, thinking about it, before nodding. ]
Let's see... I like... more forward people. I don't think I'd mind someone aggressive with their affections, but I definitely don't like being crowded -- so someone who's considerate of my space and speed, but makes it known that they do like my company, and that they want me around. For basics. Trust and respect are a given, and I'd love someone who can... make me feel less someone with a gallon or three of blood on her hands and more like someone who's living a life she deserves to.
[ ... which she knows sounds. interesting, and clarifies after another bite of rice. ]
Like how I described Ryoji. I felt different than who I was, but not in a bad way -- I felt like a normal girl who had a crush. Um... I don't mind leading, but I'd like someone who takes the initiative a lot more. That's what I've learned from my mishaps!